3 Years together and you know nothing..

If you Really Knew me you would know that im not always as happy as i seem I plaster on a smile 10% to fool you 90% to fool my self into thinking im in a good mood but the truth is i get stressed out alot and when i should be thinking about the stuff that normal high school kids should think about i am too busy stressing about the future and all the ways that i can mess mine up if im not careful. If you really knew me you would know that im terrified of dissapontment but more than that i am terrified of dissappointing all the people that expected more from me and all of the people that i made promises-- promises i knew i couldn't keep. if you really knew me you would know that i am most scared of dissappointing my parents. that i worry to much and act more like a mom to my younger siblings then a sister. If you really knew me you'd know that i wear my heart on my sleeve, that i love to much and even if people warn me about you i'll give you an oppurtunity to prove them wrong but more often then not you turn out just like they all said. and me i'm left to listen to all of the "i told you so's" If you really knew me you would know that im a sucker for nicholas sparks movies that i hold on to the negative comments and they often drowned out the positive. IF you really knew me you would know that i love music, and if i could listen to it all day i would. you'd know that i have way to many celebrity crushes and i can quote every word of she's the man. you would also know that i love poetry but i'm scared to preform it. and you'd know that i still wont drive on the freeway IF you really knew me you would know that i have five best friends that are sisters than anything. you would know that im scared for college and this whole growing up thing but that i'm excited to find someone that will get to know all of these things about me.