Inhale. Exhale.

you want to know what i realized today? it is time to take the next step in my life even if it is a step into the dark. tomorrow Heather is moving up to logan for school and starting the chain reaction of all of us going out into the world with nothing but a dream and an empty apartment. all of my best friends that have been there for me through thick and thin are going to be gone. i mean ya i can still talk to them over the phone and what not but no more late nights and no more being together all day every day. oh my im going to miss these girls.

oh and one little detail i left out My Best friend got ENGAGED today!!! <3 <3 <3

i have honestly never seen anyone happier than this girl, --right now in this moment, in my whole life. i can't even believe that i am going to be helping her plan her wedding pretty soon. it's 2:30 AM so i should probably stop well im ahead {Life's too short to be anything but happy <3}

What Happened To Us??

What ever happened to the Innocence?? When children could turn on the T.V. without fear of what they'd see. When they could walk down the halls without plugging there ears When there were no violent word or actions, and no angry tears When there were no feelings of helplessness and no such thing as fear Back when drugs was a five letter word.. Back when hate and judgment were unheard of Back when kissing and holding hands was gross Back when we could feel safety in our own homes Back when kidnappers were just monsters in dreams And lieing and stealing only happened on screens Back when hearts could love and come out whole Back when drinks at parties didn't include alcohol Back when girls could accept themselves and there bodies Back when boys could cry without being teased by somebody Back when media and magazines didn't tell us who to be Back when having money for bills was a guarantee Back when songs on the radio weren't 50% bleeped Back when girls could wear skirts and not get hit on by creeps Back when Husbands and Wives would stay together forever Back when Families and Friendships stayed strong through whatever Back when Sex was a word only used by adults Back when girls didn't get pregnant at 16 years old Back when kids weren't abused, yelled at, or beaten Back when a girl could remeber the last time she'd eaten Back when make-up was used for your face not your bruises Back when in kids thoughts, suicide wasn't included Back when tobacco companies couldn't convince us Back when we could find strength and courage within us Back when no matter what we would stand for what's right Back when we wouldn't go down without a fight Back when even as teens our voices were heard Back when we weren't affected by other's words Back when we had our Innocence. . .

- Paige Lauren Young

3 Years together and you know nothing..

If you Really Knew me you would know that im not always as happy as i seem I plaster on a smile 10% to fool you 90% to fool my self into thinking im in a good mood but the truth is i get stressed out alot and when i should be thinking about the stuff that normal high school kids should think about i am too busy stressing about the future and all the ways that i can mess mine up if im not careful. If you really knew me you would know that im terrified of dissapontment but more than that i am terrified of dissappointing all the people that expected more from me and all of the people that i made promises-- promises i knew i couldn't keep. if you really knew me you would know that i am most scared of dissappointing my parents. that i worry to much and act more like a mom to my younger siblings then a sister. If you really knew me you'd know that i wear my heart on my sleeve, that i love to much and even if people warn me about you i'll give you an oppurtunity to prove them wrong but more often then not you turn out just like they all said. and me i'm left to listen to all of the "i told you so's" If you really knew me you would know that im a sucker for nicholas sparks movies that i hold on to the negative comments and they often drowned out the positive. IF you really knew me you would know that i love music, and if i could listen to it all day i would. you'd know that i have way to many celebrity crushes and i can quote every word of she's the man. you would also know that i love poetry but i'm scared to preform it. and you'd know that i still wont drive on the freeway IF you really knew me you would know that i have five best friends that are sisters than anything. you would know that im scared for college and this whole growing up thing but that i'm excited to find someone that will get to know all of these things about me.

Don't Kick The Chair

"There are lonely nights when you see no hope
and you're feeling short of breathe
like the whole damn world is a braided rope
in a noose around your neck.. Don't kick the chair"

The Boy Who Trapped The Sun - Copper Down

Radical Face - Welcome Home

I am staring at the eiffel tower. And it's staring back at me, the only difference is i look at her with amazement in my eyes but she, she looks at me saying "stop staring and come explore." Sometimes i wonder how long it'd take to get to the top and is the view really that great? will i find a painter, a hot french guy or just a bunch of tourists. do people in France take the eiffel tower for granted or do they go there every day like i wish i could. someday soon.. i'll explore